Thursday, October 15, 2009

Thursday's Truth

It seems like my mind is constantly in a fog.  There are lots of distractions around here and I am constantly being pulled in many different ways.  

Sophia will follow me around saying "Mommy, hair?" "Mommy, hair?" "Mommy, hair?"  She'll persist for an hour just for me to look down to see that all she wants is for me to put her little pigtails back in for her.  

Cohen will walk around the house and request over and over "Up.....up.....up....up..." to see if I'll give in and finally pick him up. Which will then create a domino effect of three more little ones insisting, "Mommy, up..."  

Finn likes to ask to go outside and then once he's outside he likes to ask to come back inside. It's to see if I'll pay attention to him and open and shut the door for him for as long as he sees fit. 

Noah's new one is "Mommy, look! or "Mommy, watch!" No matter if he's just sitting on the couch or about to go down the slide - he wants to see if I'll look his way - all eyes on him.  

I've gotten really good at tuning out the requests so I don't start a domino effect and so I can try to stay on course and get my next task done.  The problem with this is that I've started to tune out that one clear voice who should be directing my path throughout the day.  God, the Holy Spirit, my BFF; I'm sad to say that voice has been giving very clear instructions lately and I've simply been ignoring it and going on to the next item on my checklist. 

The God who has given me the miracles that these four little ones are, the God who provides in abundance for our family of six on just one income, the same God who created this entire universe. How could I just ignore what He is asking of me? How did I make His plan so insignificant and my pursuit for order and pleasure so much better? I let my mind get clouded by everything around me.  I fill my schedule with meaningless tasks and activities that leave me too tired and worn out to do what He's asking. I get in a hurry and forget to really listen and I justify that there's always tomorrow. I don't want that to be my life. As our pastor often says, God's plan is not always easier but always so much better than our own plans. I've got to choose who it is I am living for and then learn to listen to that clear yet quiet voice in order to live it out.

You must fear the Lord your God and worship him and cling to him. Your oaths must be in his name alone. He alone is your God, the only one who is worthy of your praise, the one who has done these mighty miracles that you have seen with your own eyes. 
Deuteronomy 10:20 & 21

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Suzanne said...

preach on, girlfriend! soooooooooooooooooooooo true. gosh, i love you. your honesty is beautiful. many times i have to get slapped in the face to wake up as well and restructure myself to give GOD my VERY best---before anyone else. so difficult to do sometimes--especially with the lives we live. but that surely doesn't stop us from trying.

Alaine said...

It is so easy to be busy with my own schedules and plans. Never giving a thought to what God may be directing me to do, and often not even giving Him the time to speak to me.
Earlier in chapter 10,verses 12-13 "And now, what do you think God expects of you? Just this: live in His presence in holy reverence, follow the road He sets out for you, love Him, serve God, your God, with everything you have in you, obey the commandments and regulations of God that I'm commanding you today-live a good life." The children of Israel so often walked/ran away from God-yet He stuck with them with a never-ending, unbroken, constant, LOVE. Good to know!
I love how you share your heart in these Mari-it refreshes me too. Love to all of you! Alaine

Anonymous said...

Oh Mari - I love your posts and how you share of yourself. When I get busy one of the first things I slack off of is my prayer life and listening to God. I get so busy I focus on what is happening with me and my life, and I should be focusing on where is God in all of it. Love you all - Debbie P.S. always remember that the littles ones of the world do grow up and you will miss these days :)